Random musing #1

but what about everything i've known, everyting i've learnt, all my thoughts, all my experiences. what of them? what happens to them after? was all of it for nothing? will i get a chance to look back and truly understand my life?

will i truly be able to explain to people i love, ho wmuch i love them? will they be able to udnerstand? what happens to the love? what happens to them? where do i go? where do they go?

Also, yesterday was the first day ever that I didn't miss home so much. Hmmm. Not good.

6 weeks to go to probably the most difficult, exciting, amazing, depressing year of my life.

Do I regret making the choice of committing to my choice? Maybe. My chances of going back to what I had are bleaker by the day, yet hope still remains.

Change?

Lots has changed. The people around me. Some people have come in with a bang, while others have faded away. I'm in a new country now. I hate winters and miss summers. I've found the love I have waited for (hopefully!).

But in a way everything's the same. I'm still a loner. I walk in groups but stay to myself. People think they know me but they don't.

Do I know myself?

It's been a while. 

How I wish I could stop time?

So much to be said, so much to be heard, so much to be done, so much to be felt. But no time.

Why do 19 months and 1 day seem so less now? And why do another 19 months seem so long?

Back.

A post has been long time coming. Lots has happened in the past year or so that I could write upon, but whenever I try to put my feelings down into words, I hit a wall.

Anyways, college is about to end in a few days, with everyone around me gearing up to life after college. Some have the best of further education to look forward to, some the best of jobs, while I lie as confused as I have ever been. 

What is it that is there for me? Am I really interested in an MBA, or working for someone else and listening to their orders? What happened to the dreams, the ambitions that I had? Am I really doing justice to myself by bowing down to the worldly pressures? Will I cease to be myself? 

Sometimes a lack of options is the best thing to happen to you.

College Life

Every New semester:

After 1st week:



After the 2nd week:



Before the mid-term test:



During the mid-term test:



After the mid-term test:



Before the final exam:



Once get to know the final exam schedule:



7 days before the final exam:



6 days before the final exam:



5 days before the final exam:



4 days before the final exam:



3 days before the final exam:



2 days before the final exam:



1 day before the final exam:



The night before the final exam:



1 hour before the final exam:



During the final exam:



Once walk out from the examination hall:



After the final exam, during the holiday:



That's college!!!

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Equilibrium

My Tata Sky programme info guide describes 'Equilibrium' as-
"In a fascist future where all forms of feeling are prohibited, an official cleric rises against the system to overthrow the .......", you get the point.

Emotions are a very strange thing to define. While there are great positive emotions like love, friendship, sympathy, empathy etc., there are also a lot of hugely negative connotations of the same emotions- jealousy, hatred, apathy, wars, racism, casteism etc.
So, hypothetically, if you're given a choice, to either live in a world of emotions, i.e. the world as it is today, OR to live in a world where the only thought is rational thought, where there is no room for emotions-either positive or negative. What would you choose? (Do realize that, impulsively, anyone is bound to make a pro-emotions choice. But do think a little bit about this topic.)
Hoping for the views of a few readers.

On a side note, why do all dystopian movies with a 'good' ending, end on an anarchic note?
I mean, is anarchy really better than forced order?

The truth

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